Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Life drawing

Just got back from life drawing. New location. Artists 25 studio.  Small, very nice, good lighting and a good deal (2.5 hours for $8.)

a few 2 minute or so gestures.

 10 minutes

5 minutes

 5 minutes

 10 minutes

20 minutes


Been having a lot of struggle today. I knew that getting back to my art would open a lot and be hard, but I hadn't realized how hard.  I have so much energy that I am on the brink of bursting.  It is almost painful.  So much judgement, so much self criticism. Badly programmed brain.  

I have second guessed myself multiple times today, wondering whether I can really do it, if I have the ability. It is so frustrating have so much I want to express and yet not being able to.  Hand just doesn't respond, doesn't follow.  I don't have the tools yet. I struggle.

I won't give up however. I don't have anything left except this, and I won't let this go.  i will struggle on.

festina lente.

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